Leave me alone! Don't read this. I can't stop to figure out how you found this site or how I need to proceed to better secure my words as I fight the brink of sanity, but it's the third time I've attempted to use a tool that could help me heal and understand, but so far no privacy found.
I was dubbed by a sociopath
[you must ask for permission through this link] and I was madly in love with him when it happened. It meaning a trauma so unexpected and one I never saw coming that I knew not only that I was in shock, but I would never be with this man again. I had seen evil.
One online blog I thought was just in draft form had several followers that night when I came back, since you see, I was recovering from the damage and devastation of loving a Psychopath, and caused those he "LOVES" to be so devastated, it is is so very complex and horrifying, everyday. Joy, joy-between running, trying to scramble up your stuff, find any hidden finances, ask around for places to stay, see a counselor right away, see a trauma specialist if you are still in shock or have PTSD like I did. Then you need immediate treatment for the trauma just so you can speak and not stutter or hyperventilate. So you can imagine the terror I felt when I saw "followers" and later read on one of hundreds of sites for survivors of a sociopathic relationship, that those that follow blogs of victims are often sociopaths themselves. Wow. I yanked that blog down that second
- I always hesitate to write anywhere about this, but I've learned it's absolutely necessary in moving forward. I pray people can't find my ramblings, but I'm told I've been helping people , which is how I live my life, so it makes sense I would help. I password protect,but I'm posting more and with less fear.